ive been so bad at expressing my feelings in words lately. and whats truly annoying, is that i have no clue why. i know what im feeling, but i cant say it to others. maybe i need more practice. maybe i need more time trying to find what it is im really feeling.
anyway, i feel much better today than i did yesterday. i dont know what got me yesterday. i started thinking of old things, and i visited extremely triggering web pages. so i ended up pouring my heart out again. though this time not to a. it actually helped to talk to him, since he's such a good listener.
i love the state where you're getting to know a person; you know you like her, but you dont know everything about her, so every time you talk, there are new topics to discuss. im in that state with several people from tarvalon.net
. and it feels really good, i know ill have good friends from there in a while. i already have some good friends there i met only two months ago.